Tuesday
Dec142010

Field Reports

Susan McCarty


 

I.

0011  EST

            Blood alcohol levels

                        X: .07
                        Y: .05

            Setting

                        Bar: red-shadowed, hung with ghosts of smoked cigarettes. No
                                   longer hazy but retaining a memory of haze.
                        Table: tippy, salted, black
                        Chairs: ripped and tilted toward each other

            Costuming

                        X: Polyester wrap dress: black
                                    Heels: blister-raising, spine-arching
                                    Some Spanx™ shaping undergarments present
                        Y: Jeans: designer
                                   Dress shirt: untucked, roll-sleeved, lavender
                                   White ankle socks, brown driving loafers never worn for
                                              driving

            Upper bodies:
                        X: tabled at the elbow, hands turned in
                        Y: right forearm tabled, left rests on thigh

            Lower bodies:
                        X: foot pressed nervously into table leg
                        Y: knee leaning outward, seeking       

            Pulse
                        X: 89 BPM
                        Y: 92 BPM

Notes: Some pupil dilation present (Y and X).

 

0134 EST

            Blood alcohol levels
                        X: .16
                        Y: .11

            Setting
                        Unchanged

            Costuming
                        Unchanged

            Upper bodies:
                        X: torso fully torsioned toward Y
                        Y: right elbow closing distance, currently 5.3 inches from left
                                  elbow of X

            Lower bodies:
                        X: a hopeful tingling
                        Y: left knee: rhythmic

            Pulse
                        X: 89 BPM
                        Y: 95 BPM

Notes: Phenylethylamine, dopamine and norepinephrine levels elevated (moderately-Y; slightly-X).

 

0215 EST

            Blood alcohol levels
                        X: .19
                        Y: .13

            Setting
                        Shared cab traveling uptown: smell of car deodorizer—cherry
                        bark and almond. Leather seats: slightly shredded, impatient.
                        Sodium street lamps  blink by. Windows: lightly smeared
                                  (sebum/saliva) by previous passengers.

            Costuming
                        X: Added: lightweight microfiber trench; $6 bodega
                                  umbrella—two broken spokes.
                        Y: Added: gray lambswool pullover sweater.

            Upper bodies:
                        X: head turned toward window
                        Y: head turned toward head (X)

            Lower bodies:
                        X: legs crossed toward Y
                        Y: hoping for a fortuitous jostle

            Pulse
                        X: 89 BPM
                        Y: 96 BPM

Notes: Slightly elevated blood pressure (Y)

 

0237 EST

            Blood alcohol levels
                        X: .18
                        Y: .11

            Setting
                        Front stoop: Brownstone, 1847, 8 steps up to door
                        Weather: 70 deg., breezy, 10% humidity, suggestive
                        Y stands on sidewalk, X one step above.
                        Horizon lines:
                                    X: A view of those fuckably cruel eyebrows, the slightly
                                             thinning crown, a 24 hour bodega across the
                                             street (Lucky Gem 24).
                                    Y: Eyes level with the long and pulsing neck of X—small                                              yellowed bruise the size of a thumb.
                        Foliage: Boughs of city trees rustle above iron-fenced holes in
                        the sidewalk. Not so much trees as reminders of trees. Trees
                        like gravestones of trees.

            Costuming
                        X: Lost: Umbrella. Bunched: Spanx™
                        Y: Lost: cellular telephone—back of cab; small percentage
                        of nerve—back of cab.

            Upper bodies:
                        X: Lips, slightly parted
                        Y: Hands, tensed to cup

            Lower bodies:
                        X: Partly turned towards door
                        Y: Partly erect

            Pulse
                        X: 90 BPM
                        Y: 100 BPM

Notes: X makes false claims that situation is atypical. Y, gripping stair-rail, practices the power of positive thinking™, wills bodies forward and up, toward entanglement.

 

II.

1434  EST

            Blood alcohol levels
                        X: .00             

            Setting
                        Waiting room on 33rd: Over-lit and underpostered. Dirt in
                        linoleum corners. One octagonal fish tank. One fish (Siamese
                        fighting).
                        Seating: wipeable, mauve, the smell of quick sanitation.
                        Reading material: Car and Driver (1996), TV Guide (March,
                        2001), El SIDA y Tú (hot pink and informational).

            Costuming
                        X: Button-down shirt with permanent coffee stain, always
                        claimed as new coffee stain when noted; black pants
                        (breathable); cotton panties, as advised

            Upper Body
                        Pulsing with beat of own heart.

            Lower Body

                        Symptomatic.

            Pulse
                        X: 96 BPM

            Viral Load
                        Unknown

Notes: Siamese fighting fish (Betta splendens) are aggressive and tend to kill all but the most inconsequential of tank mates, such as shrimp. Bettas are carnivorous and may eat their own fertilized eggs out of hunger.

 

1502 EST

            Blood alcohol levels
                        X: .00
                        Y: .019

            Setting
                        Exam room:  Achingly cold, largely beige.

            Costuming
                        X: Paper gown, tied at neck, held at belly, one
                        breast wandered out, nipple like a hex-giver,  
                        an evil eye, unnoticed by both.
                        Y: Cotton overcoat, stained at neck and lapel.
                        Stethoscope for show. Blue latex gloves.

            Upper bodies:
                        X: Reclined and chilly.
                        Y: Hunched at shoulders, head straining forward
                        as if preparing to enter, a breach birth in reverse.

            Lower bodies:
                        X: Elevated and pushing out from inside, knees a
                        million miles apart. A shuddering once the acid is
                        applied. A pain sweat.
                        Y: Stool-perched

            Pulse
                        X: 94 BPM
                        Y: 82 BPM

            Viral Load
                        Est. moderate to high

Notes: Trichloroacetic acid, Interferon, Podophyllotoxin, Imiquimod, 5-Flourouracil (use discontinued due to burning), excision, diathermy, electrocauter, laser treatment.

 

1637 EST

            Blood alcohol levels
                        X: .18

            Setting
                        Apartment bedroom
                                    Bed: Queen-size bed (Hopen model from Elizabeth
                                    Center 1000 IKEA Drive, Elizabeth, NJ) chipped on
                                    delivery. Slightly warped, modestly pillowed.
                                    Laptop:  Warm on thighs
                                    Internet: borrowed from neighbors. CDC website
                                    strangely comforting; specialized dating sites, not.
                                    Cell phone: opened and queued to call Y 40 minutes
                                    ago. No call made.

            Costuming
                        None              

            Upper body
                        Irrelevant

            Lower body
                        Scabbing, foreign.

            Pulse
                        X: 92 BPM

Notes: “Virus types are often referred to as ‘low-risk’ (wart-causing) or ‘high-risk’ (cancer-causing), based on whether they put a person at risk for cancer.”
 

III.

1243  EST

            Blood alcohol levels
                        X: .12
                        Y: .08

            Setting
                        Bar: Airplane themed
                        Table: sunk with cupholders large enough for martini glasses
                        Chairs: fully padded yet still uncomfortable

            Costuming
                        X: somewhat clever t-shirt, good ass jeans
                        Y: White v-neck t-shirt, grey pants slightly tighter than they
                        should be. The possibility of a hat or scarf.

            Upper bodies:
                        X: Unnaturally upright and thrust forward, toward each other,
                        at shoulders. Tempted to palpate well-formed shoulders of Y.
                        Y: Enticing clavicle view

            Lower bodies:
                        X, Y: Knees pressed to knees like a staring contest,
                        unacknowledged above the surface of the table between.

            Pulse
                        X:  90 BPM
                        Y:  90 BPM

Notes: The American Airline cocktail—Beefeater gin, dash of Mrs. T’s Bloody Mary Mix (canned), peanut garnish

 

0145 EST

            Blood alcohol levels
                        X: .15
                        Y: .14

            Setting

                        The uptown 3: smell of long-dried piss. Cornered away for the
                        makeout. Pale selves reflected in windows that look onto
                        nothing: subterranean ghosts. Surreptitiously photographed by
                        lonely rabbi. At the other end of the car, someone barely sings.

            Costuming
                        X: Added: faded blue hoodie.
                        Y: Added: black Members Only jacket.

            Upper bodies:
                        X and Y: heads held by tongues in mouths of heads.

            Lower bodies:
                        X: cross-legged and suddenly stung, as if to remind, as if in
                        warning, as if moral compass of crotch outshone that of soul.
                        Y: one leg draped over crossed legs of X. Regretting tight pants.

            Pulse
                        X: 95 BPM
                        Y: 90 BPM

Notes: X screws up courage to notify. All is tight wound, hard pressed, horny.

 

0238 EST

            Blood alcohol levels
                        X: .14
                        Y: .13

            Setting
                        Bedroom: Moment of notification arrives.
                        Moment of notification passes, without notification. Y lights
                        candle. X extinguishes candle, wills Y not to see.

            Costuming
                        X: None
                        Y: black wool socks

            Upper bodies:
                        X:  Arched to keep attention topside.
                        Y: Attentive.

            Lower bodies:
                        X: Leg wound over back (Y).
                        Y: Hip pressed to hip (X).

            Pulse
                        X: 90 BPM
                        Y: 90 BPM

Notes: Copulations complete, X imagines a thousand vaginas, identical to own, lined up forever, like mirrors on opposite walls—an infinite regression. Like mirrors in grandparents’ bathroom, where X tried for hours to look through to the end, but could never entirely get out of way of own self to see.

If X likes Y then lies must be invented. Y sleeps and dreams of airplanes.